Oh..my rambles.

Three years down...many more to come.

Tim and I celebrated our 3 year wedding anniversary yesterday, it doesn't seem like it's been that long. I can't believe how fast the time goes. This upcoming December will be 5 years for us. YIKES! Tim actually kept it low key this year, requested by me. For our anniversary I bought him a book he had wanted and he bought me roses and took me out to dinner, exactly what I wanted.

You probably noticed the photos I uploaded last night were taken with my phone, my mother currently has our camera. They (my mother, grandma and brother Trey) are currently on vacation. They are visiting the west coast states these next two weeks and I must admit, I'm jealous. They are visiting Washington, Oregon, British Columbia and California. My family use to always do long road trips when I was growing up. My mother would save all year long then we would take a HUGE road trip. I've been all over the nation thanks to her! When I say long road trips I mean..driving the east coast all the way up to New York into Canada and back down, making about hundred touring stops along the way. I've seen lots of cool stuff thanks to my mother, thank you momma!

So Tim has joined the Army as we all know. Since then I have become an information hound..wanting to know as much as I possibly can. It has been an emotional roller coaster for me..and he hasn't even gone to BCT yet! Since his basic will be during the winter months, he gets to come home for two weeks at Christmas time for 'Christmas Exodus'. While I am very excited about this, I think it's going to make it harder on him..having to go back. I know the positives will far outweigh the negatives though. Speaking of Christmas Exodus..I know there will be a good handful of people who will want to see him when he comes home for this and here is my forewarning.. if you want to see him..you will have to work around our schedule because I am going to be OVERLY selfish, haha.

I'm nervous about what's about to go on. While I have been told, mainly by my butt head brother, that there are tons of parents out there who have to play both roles while their spouse is gone and that they survive...that doesn't mean it's not hard. In fact, I'm very nervous about this. I know it's do-able..and that we will survive..but I'm not prepared yet to have to explain to Mackenzie that she can't have her daddy when she cries for him at night. I'm not prepared emotionally to have to lay down two girls at night by myself..who always ask for their daddy's kiss before going to sleep. They've never gone more than a night without him and whenever they do they always cry for him. I can see it now..Mackenzie crying 'I want my daddy' and me breaking down into tears saying 'I want him too'. Ha. But seriously though, I am nervous about it.

I have joined a forum on the internet, I do this when big things are happening that I'm not use to. I joined babycenter.com while pregnant with the girls, just so I could have someone to talk too experiencing the same things I was. Well I have done it again, www.goarmyparents.com . I'm currently on the 'Fort Jackson Families' thread talking to mothers/girlfriends/dads/sisters that currently have soldiers going to basic there. They have been a wealth of information already and he isn't even there yet!

While I am nervous about it and need to vent..I can't really vent to Tim about it. (He doesn't read my blogs, so don't think I'm an idiot by writing it where he can see.) I am trying not to let him know how I feel, he needs to be focused and not worry about me and how I'll do. He needs to be focused on getting physically and mentally ready for what he is going to be experiencing. So I will probably write on my blogs much more frequently while he is gone. I am trying to think of ways to keep the girls and myself busy while he is away, so any ideas or play dates are more than welcome!

I guess I just need to keep reminding myself to breathe and everything will be okay eventually!